Needless to say I am not looking forward to it. Not to be the deadbeat son, but I can care less about going to Southern Cali anymore.
The fact that I have been painted as the deadbeat, been gaslit into thinking that I'm problematic, called names, yelled at, and disrespected by the narcissist has made me totally check out.
In no way am I checking out on my dad (although he's no walk in the park either.) I'm done with the bullshit that comes with dealing with this person.
No one else stands up to this person. No one else tells this person what they need to hear. Even if they did it wouldn't change their behavior.
They try it with me. Sometimes I don't have the energy and just give in. Sometimes I tell myself this person is not going to get away with this madness on my watch and match their level of crazy. What I have learned is that does nothing but makes me exhausted. There is no competing with a this person's crazy.
Lately I have chosen another alternative. Speak my truth and give them the space to accept it or not. If the person chooses to escalate, I cut it off right at the beginning and let them know I will not engage in this fuckery.
Fortunately I will only be there for one day. I am flying out the day prior and coming back a few hours after the meeting. I am not staying any longer than I have to.
I will be there for my dad the best that I can. I will help this person out to the best of my ability but I don't take orders from them. I am not an employee and I will not be disrespected.
I'm not bringing my boxing gloves to this place. I am just not going to engage any longer. However, disengaging does not mean not saying what needs to be said.
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