AURALISM

LINKS: AURALISM

              THE MAKING OF DADDY SCRUFF

              PAIN PIG

Auralism: Sexual arousal or excitement caused by sound. It can be a variation of many things. The sound of one's voice, a sexy playlist of music, breathing, moaning, or dirty talk. It could be highly sexual or not sexual at all.

I've always known that I was highly turned on by various sounds as well as erotic literature.  It is the education of this one word along with a drive from the grocery store that gave birth to this post.

It is not uncommon for me to play music, or some type of commentary in the car to keep me alert especially on days when I am tired from a long day of work and grocery shopping.

This one particular day I decided to play a video clip from one of my play sessions.  Because I was driving and unable to watch the video, I figured I would just listen to the audio through my car speaker. What I discovered was one of the most arousing trips from the grocery store I have ever encountered.

The clip is from an oral training I had with Pain Pig.  

It starts with me getting him on his knees and placing a spandex hood over his head cutting off his vision. Next I would test his deep throat abilities.  For Pain Pig, this is really not a training as he is very well equipped with taking deep long strokes.

My job is easy.  All I have to do is enjoy Domination of this guy.  He is hungry and really wants my cum.  I will give it to him but first he has to earn it. 

I let him know how good he is, but most of all I want him to tell me how good he is.

Without taking my cock out of his mouth I order him to say, "I'm a good cocksucker."

He mumbles and slurs the words as I go deeper down his throat.

"Keep saying it."

"I'm a good cockucker, I'm a good cock sucker." He slurs.

It is said that it is rude to talk with your mouth full.  My rules declares it damn near a requirement.

To hear someone challenge themselves to pronounce properly their sentences while having a dick pumped down their throat will never get old.  It goes beyond hearing the challenge.  

To feel the vibration of the receiver's voice on your dick is one of the most amazing feelings especially if he has a deep voice.  The vibration itself is a nut busting experience.

Pain Pig does more than just do as he is told.  He discovers and quickly picks up that I fucking love a sub to talk with his mouth full. He picks up and understands that  I love it when we talk dirty to each other. And he goes all in. 

Listen.

THE HATER BATOR

MAY 19, 2025

Monday 

About 7am

LINK: AN OPEN LETTER

As I was going through my blog posts and checking my comments, I notice I received a reply on one of my entries from an anonymous poster.

You wrote:

"*YAWN*. Just... embarrassing. To dudes in general. I cringe at this so-fucking-stereotypical FRUITCAKE HOMO display. From the stereotypical homo-sounding lisps and effeminate manners and all that... to the hairless-like-an-infant tweaker shaving mess yall got going on... just gross. Fuck dude, grow a few pairs, glue em on. Act like fucking normal men."

Well. 

Since you started it, I'm going to finish it.

You brought your freaky little ass to my blog.

I didn't put a gun to your head and tell you to come to my blog and jack yourself to oblivion only to get masturbator's guilt for doing so.  I also find it hard to believe that you happened to have stumbled on my blog by accident, especially seeing the number of times you visited in the history.

I was going to ignore your desperate cry for attention (most likely stemming from a lack of it from your own family members.) But  I figured why not entertain stupid for a short moment while I have some free time.

You mentioned how cringe it is for two men in general to be engaged in "Homo display," and yet you somehow found yourself with you Peter out being totally "disgusted" by what you came here to see.  That is special!

Oh, and thank you for pointing out our homo sounding lisps and effeminate mannerisms.  It is not something I work on displaying.  It just comes out naturally for me.  Sometimes I even Sashay!

And guess who comes to my blog for it?

I would give you a hint but since you don't have the balls to even have a profile name, I will have to call you Anon. 

To all my anon readers who either read in stealth mode because of your own personal situations, or just prefer to be low-key,  I got you. This is in no way a dig to you.  This goes out to my Hater Bators who shame and make fun of gay people in the day and put their pink panties on in the dark of night because they think by being hateful towards us will make the mainstream oblivious to who they really are.

News flash: 

It just reveals your own personal demons.

I was going to christen you The Horny Hater.  You know, "straight" men who come to gay porn sites to scoff at how gross two men butt fucking is; all the while, fantasizing about getting their backs blown by those same homosexuals.  Apply laughing track here.  

I wrestled and wrestled with two monikers. "The Horny Hater" or "The Hater Bator."

The Hater Bator won.  It just has a better flow in my opinion.

I hope if you do decide to try to step up again and poke your little chest out, you will at least use the new name bestowed upon you.  It is my gift to you. One fudge packer to another.

Clap back. 

I openly invite it.  

Please do.  

Just understand every time you do respond. 

I win.

Even if you come back with the hardest clap back. 

I win.

Every time you even visit my page (most likely under some guise.)

I win.

Why?

Because you prove just how rent free I live in your head. 

Like many Hip Hop poets have chanted throughout history, "You a fan!"

P.S.

Don't forget to erase your internet history and cache so that your wife doesn't find out you like dirty gay erotica and pictures.

Hugs and kisses

Mark A.K.A.

Your Daddy ❤️

BEADS FOR ZERO

 LINKS: ZERO

              THE MAKING OF DADDY SCRUFF

January 7, 2023

Two years have passed and there are still parts of play and as well as personal learning points that come up to write about the those two days I spent playing with Zero.  That happens pretty often with many of the guys I play with.  Since you don't get tired of hearing about it, I won't get tired of posting about it.  

These are the beads for Zero.

BACK AT THE HOTEL

LINK: LB

December 11, 2024

I sent a message out to LB letting him know that if he wanted to come by after the INTERROGAYTION, he was welcome.

“I will throw this out there.  If you would like to stop by Friday night for an encore, or for that matter, Saturday warm up, the invitation is open.  I will be leaving Sunday morning.  I will have time also before check out at 11am.  I know you’re going to be a busy inmate so I understand.  Just keep that in mind in case you may be open to it,” I messaged him.

“Open to it: yes!

Available for it: depends.

I would say Friday evening, post-event is very likely possible (I can usually last longer than the supply of tops), but let’s see how we BOTH feel afterwards on Friday,” he responded.

Friday, December 13, 2024

                     

The event is bangin’.  The atmosphere is filled with the sounds of guys wailing, grunting, metal chains clanging against the poles of swaying slings, and the sound of flesh violently clapping against more flesh.  The sights are just as erotic. 

Play time

I'm in rare form tonight.  I decide to use my prep tonight and go totally bare.  My main focus tonight is 100 percent fucking.  My goal is to test every hole that's receiving at this event.  I am pretty sure I fulfill that quest.  Even though the inmates are hooded both LB and I know when we are in contact with each other. 

After the Interrogaytion I run into LB.

"Are you up to coming over?"

"Sure!"

Around 12:30am

I wait for him as he gets his belongings.  The hotel is just about two blocks away so we hike there.

About 12:45am

We make it to the room and get more comfortable.  We take off our clothes and cuddle.  It doesn't take long for us to get aroused.  One would think that with all the dick he's had he would be sore by now. But he is ready for one more pounding.  I can't remember how much ass I got.  I know it is more than I've ever had in one night.  Surprisingly I am horny for more of LB.

There is a unique chemistry I have with that man that makes my craving insatiable for him.  

Tonight is a special milestone as this is my first time barebacking with him.  I did fuck him a bunch of times tonight bare.  It felt great.  But now he's not one of the many guys I've had a piece of.  Now it is just him and me.  One on one. 

We start with laying on the bed with kissing.  He kisses me starting at the lips.  Then he goes down until he reaches my crotch.  He begins to go down on me.  I would love to return the favor.  Somehow we end up in the 69 position.  From there we end up in various positions with me fucking him face down ass up, spread eagle, and on his side.

One of the best moments is when I have him on his back, legs over my shoulders and we have this intense eye contact as I pump. This is the position in which I finish inside him.  

It is very late.  We are both very tired.  I can not remember if I gave him a ride home or not.  I believe I did.  

We both have amazing nights of fucking.  It is late and there is one more event tomorrow (Which is now today) ahead of us.  I am unsure what my stamina for the next event will be like and actually if I don't do much of anything, I am pretty content with that.  I've had some amazing ass tonight. I very glad we decided to go back to the hotel for our after party romp.

THE SUBMISSIVE TOP

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ANODYSPAREUNIA

 I learned a new word a few days ago.  At least, it's new to me.

The word added to my library is Anodyspareunia.  It is apparently pronounced, an-pronounced as "an"- oh-dis-puh-roo-nee-uh.  It is defined as persistent or recurrent pain experienced during receptive anal sex, mainly among men who have sex with men.

This pain affects receivers through anal sex, fingering, and / or toys. 

I just happen to experience issues with all the above.

It is caused by a variety of physiological and psychological factors.

Some physiological factors include penis / toy size, angle of the anorectal area, and lube or lack thereof.

Some psychological factors include an inability to relax the sphincter a.k.a. uptight.  Literally.  Previous painful experiences, and performance anxiety. 

How I discovered this term; I was googling something.  I can never remember the main reason I do most anything.  I just know there is usually a turn around somewhere.

As I have been on my journey to retrain my hole, I've been researching various ways to deal with the pain of insertion. 

I'm sure I typed in something to the likes of "how to train my booty hole without crying like a little bitch." Maybe not exactly those words but...

Like a fucking broken record, I am going to say it again. In my younger days I was totally versatile.  

Did it hurt back then? Yes it did. But not half as much as my latter years.  Back in the day it seemed easier to find versatile guys.  Not much easier.  But easier which gave me more practice.

Today it is like you are either top or bottom no in between; and you must come with your A-game.  Nobody's trying to wait while you play catch up with your body.  

Dudes want to fuck.  They don't want to "hold on," or "give it a moment."

I am sure this pain situation for me stems from both physiological and psychological elements.  The psychological aspect is without a doubt the

prominent factor in my book.

I do feel a lot more hopeful in getting to that place of having my legs spread while some stud fills my insides with his dick.  Even if it is not a power slam, just getting to the ability to have another man inside me puts a smile on my face and actually have me rock hard while I'm typing this.

THE REALITY OF HOUSING

March 4, 2025

                 

A few months ago my mother decided that she would  finally look into affordable housing for seniors.  Most of her searches would lead her on various waiting lists which could take months and even years before she saw an available place.  The good news is she has finally come to realize that she needs to start taking action now since it is getting harder and harder to stay afloat with the cost of living and rent.

I offered to take her a few places. 

Fast forward to this month she received a call, to fill out an application to look at a place. After discovering what the rent would be as well as how far it would be from her doctors, social center and myself she decided not to pursue.  Even with assistance, the cost wouldn't be worth the move.  

I’ve noticed her apartment has picked up that annoying ash tray smell.  I’m back to taking a shower after coming back from my mom’s because the cigarette smell lingers on me until I wash it off. 

She claims she only does it every so often. But I know better.

She was doing so well. She had gone at least four to five months without. Now she’s back on.  I know she is stressed about her financial state and how she is going to keep herself afloat even with Boss and my help.  

These are all things my sister and I told her she needed to prepare for years ago. She’s finally realizing the reality of what has been bitched to her over the last 30 plus years. 

We are all a little slow. I get it. There are things I wish I would have prepared for when I was younger but didn't. But time is ticking. No more pussyfooting around.