LINK: THE EXODUS
Boss, my husband has been in rehabilitation. There has been a change in his mobility. When he finally got out of rehab a few days ago, I pretty much knew that our lifestyle would be much different as he requires more physical care.
I don't know what this new lifestyle is going to look like in the future but I know for now, his needs require me to be there for him a lot more than I have in the past.
I'm okay with that. I'm more of a homebody anyway.
For now, this is my EXODUS from the whole scene; at least for a while. I don't know what a while looks like.
It could be a few months. It may be a year. It may be a few years and that's okay.
It's not a burden.
I'm alright with this exodus. I'm alright with not making the Horse Market events, Interrogaytions, taking a break from online dating / fucking and I also worked my last caregiving shift with my client.
Almost 30 years I've worked taking care of various families. Now it is time to take care of my own.
This is not a sacrifice. This is not a tough decision where I'm giving up something I am really passionate about to take care of the one I love.
It is more of a breaking point of a built up need for change.
I am 54 years old.
Twenty nine years of bending, lifting and fitting myself into tiny, awkward spaces has caught up with my body. The only person I am going to do that for is my husband (Fortunately he is not that bad off) and my father when I visit or he visits.
As for hook ups, play sessions, and even this blog:
The whole hook up game has gotten old. There are a very selected few that are worthy of my precious time. I am sure they know who they are.
LB even though we don't hang out and chat with each other on a regular basis, I feel a closeness to him. We have a chemistry that is like no other sexually. When we fuck, we fuck like crazy and the beautiful thing about him is he see me as human. Not some kind of fantasy.
Logan: What can I say that hasn't already been said before?
Logan is a friend. He reaches beyond contact or booty call. He messages me and checks up on me regularly. Though we don't play much these days, it is always uplifting getting a message from him.
As for prospects: There are a few prospects that I have been in contact with. I am still open to getting to meet up and getting to know them as long as they understand that sex, BDSM, and kink is not my main agenda when connecting.
So where does this leave the blog?
Writing has always been my outlet. It has always been my therapy. I doubt that will change. Maybe the format might shift a little. Maybe the entries may become more introspective opposed to prurient in nature, but I believe that as long as I have the resource and ability to do so, I shall.
This time may give me the opportunity to catch up on some of the experiences I have yet to share about. Besides, there are plenty of retroactive experiences that are all part of THE MAKING OF DADDY SCRUFF.
So the short of it: Who knows what anything looks like right now. I guess we will see along the way.
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