GETTING OUT OF THE FUNK

 June 10, 2026

     Wednesday

           4:07PM

I have taken off my pants.  I have my black ball cap on, black t-shirt, my Hanes tighty whities, white ankle socks and a comfortable pair of slippers on.

I'm not horny much, nor do I feel very sexy.  To be honest, I haven't felt sexy in over two months, before  having to get treated for an STI.  I still have one more visit as a follow up.  

I have met a few interesting guys on Scruff.  

Because I am focusing more on broadening my social circle, I am matching profiles that state "friends with benefits."  Focusing more on the friend aspect.  

I have so far had three different meet ups.  All parities have agreed to meet up to chat before doing any hooking up.  I wouldn't play anyway until after I know for certain I am clear.

Although the weather is warm enough to strip down to the attire mentioned, it is not the main reason.  

I feel like writing and when I'm writing, I prefer to do it in my underwear.

Writing in minimal clothing or in my PJs does bring an erotic element to the atmosphere. Writing and gearing up even when I don't feel sexy or in the mood often helps to get me out of a funk.

Right now the funk is rather deep.  There's this feeling of being an untouchable until I know my status, there is also the weight gain.  

I have gained every pound back and then some.  Getting back into the groove has been challenging. And then there is the lack of privacy that has also put a huge damper on my me time.

Today I made myself sit down and write; not because I feel I need to post something, but to get back to expressing myself.  It is the one thing that makes me feel sexy, even if I am writing about something totally non-sex related.

It is the one therapy I have when I'm dealing with life and it's ups and downs.

But for now I just want to write. and see where it takes me.