June 10, 2026
Wednesday
4:07PM
I have taken off my pants. I have my black ball cap on, black t-shirt, my Hanes tighty whities, white ankle socks and a comfortable pair of slippers on.
I'm not horny much, nor do I feel very sexy. To be honest, I haven't felt sexy in over two months, before having to get treated for an STI. I still have one more visit as a follow up.
I have met a few interesting guys on Scruff.
Because I am focusing more on broadening my social circle, I am matching profiles that state "friends with benefits." Focusing more on the friend aspect.
I have so far had three different meet ups. All parities have agreed to meet up to chat before doing any hooking up. I wouldn't play anyway until after I know for certain I am clear.
Although the weather is warm enough to strip down to the attire mentioned, it is not the main reason.
I feel like writing and when I'm writing, I prefer to do it in my underwear.
Writing in minimal clothing or in my PJs does bring an erotic element to the atmosphere. Writing and gearing up even when I don't feel sexy or in the mood often helps to get me out of a funk.
Right now the funk is rather deep. There's this feeling of being an untouchable until I know my status, there is also the weight gain.
I have gained every pound back and then some. Getting back into the groove has been challenging. And then there is the lack of privacy that has also put a huge damper on my me time.
Today I made myself sit down and write; not because I feel I need to post something, but to get back to expressing myself. It is the one thing that makes me feel sexy, even if I am writing about something totally non-sex related.
It is the one therapy I have when I'm dealing with life and it's ups and downs.
But for now I just want to write. and see where it takes me.
Gotta love KJ and his big, genuine smile.
ReplyDeleteWe all have those times when we just don't feel particularly sexy or even remotely interested in it. Especially when life seems to be working against us at every turn. But we have to persevere with the knowledge some unexpected thing we do or see will suddenly lite that fire again. Maybe it will come from writing. I do know that often times works for me. My imagination and thoughts can get me out of any funk. It will happen....
Thank you kindly handsome man. Yes it will definitely happen.
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