OLD FRIEND NEW HAIR

Jan 12, 2026

Link: LOGAN ARROW

I stopped by  Logan's motel room Saturday. 

He is sporting a new hair color. He decided to go blonde. 

Believe it or not, it doesn't look bad on him.  It did take getting used to in the pictures he sent. Seeing it in person gave me a better perspective. 

I'm sure his whole visual presentation would have been much better had he not suffered from a hang over.  With the trash can on standby (he used it a few times I was there) we chatted a bit before I took off. 

He was not a happy camper. We agreed to try to meet  Sunday.  Sunday I had some things to take care of regarding my dad. So Monday was the only time we had.

Because I had to assist getting Boss prepared for work, there would be very little time to spend from the time he checked out of his motel to the time he got on the train. I had approximately twenty minutes to spend time with Logan from the time I saw him walking to the time I met him at the train station.

Though we did not have much time, we both had plenty to say.

The one message on Telegram that somewhat threw a punch to the gut was, "Probably tapping out on Sacramento. I need to find a new place to feel like somebody wants something to do with me."

A definite punch to the gut.

Not in a way that I felt offended, but the stark reality that Sac Town will always be Sac Town. 

I have mentioned numerous times how I just don't get much connection here.  

Though this used to be the place where Logan's hole used to suck them in like the black hole, (in his case pink hole) There is not much connection here.  This used to be fine for the Object Persona.  But with even the ho element being a bust, there is not much left.  

The sad reality is I am an unavailable support system.  Between loving and caring for my husband with his physical limitations, dealing with my dad's health issues, and a the narcissist's mental meltdowns, my availability is very limited.  

I am fully aware that twenty minutes bonding out of a three day weekend is insane and not substantial by any means.

I still don't want to let go. 

I know that there will come a time when the visits will become less and less. I also know that with Boss's unique needs, visiting a place that requires a five hour drive will be much more challenging hence the reason I haven't taken many trips to my dad's place in a few months.

I still don't buy that walking away or letting him walk away is the answer. That shit won't fly. 

We've been at this crossroad before and we will make it to the appropriate side.